One year ago, we gathered in front of our closest friends and family and vowed to give our lives to each other.
I remember thinking how ridiculous the whole thing was. Why did we need this big production to prove our love? What I didn’t realize at the time, was just how much that day would end up meaning to me.
Our wedding was a day of healing. I remember being overwhelmed by love, not just for you, but by everyone there. I remember seeing my brother standing next to me and thinking how grateful I was that he was in my life. It wasn’t that long ago that we had barely spoken. I remember my mom helping me into my dress and feeling so much gratitude for all she had done for me in my life. I remember first seeing my dad and feeling the tears start to form in my eyes. I had always been a daddy’s girl, so I couldn’t help but feel overcome with emotion.
Our day was perfect. I honestly can’t think of a single thing I would have changed. I loved seeing your grin and hearing you call me wife. We laughed, danced, drank, awkwardly ate cake in front of everyone, and stayed until the very last song. I wanted nothing more than for the night to never end.
Everyone is always asking me, does married life feel any different? At first, I’d roll my eyes and say no. We had been dating for 6 years before we got married, so why would things be any different? What I didn’t realize, was just how much difference a year of marriage can make.
In the past year, I’ve grown to appreciate you more everyday. We’ve never stopped exploring. We’ve started ‘date days’ on the weekends. We’ve hiked countless trails. We’ve even taken our first international trip together to Greece and Ireland! If I knew married life was going to be like this, I would have suggested it sooner!
It’s like a wall has been taken down and any uncertainty about our lives I had in the past has been banished. Hearing you call me wife brings me such joy and I love calling you my husband. Even the term ‘husband’ has a new meaning to me these days. A year ago, I may have said it in a joking manner, but now I find a deeper respect for the word.
The word husband is now someone who I can rely on. Someone who has no problem ordering some take out and watching horrible TV shows on days when I’m feeling overwhelmed. Someone who is continually pushing me to be better and to continue doing the things I love. Who has never asked for me to be anyone else than the quirky person I am. My husband is the most important thing in my life that I never knew I was missing.
I honestly can’t imagine going through life with anyone else. We are so different, yet we have a perfect balance that I’ve really come to admire this past year.
This first year of marriage has exceeded my expectations and I can’t wait to spend many more with you. I never knew one day could change our relationship for the better in so many ways.
I love you so much, my husband.
(All photos by Julie Paisley Photography)